Do you know how to make lemonade?

We all know the saying "If life gives you lemons, make lemonade", but....what if you don't know how?

People throw things at you all the time telling you to go one way or another, this is your life, make your choice but.....what if you don't know where you want to go or what you want to do? What if your worried you will end up making the wrong choice that your stuck with for life?

I'm in this dilemma, well was.... I think...I hope.

As soon as you start studying for your GCSE's you are hit with this pressure to make your future there and then, choose your destiny but god knows we don't know what to do at that age, we are still kids. Some people may know straight off but others, like me, don't.

Finally at the age of twenty I believe I have discovered what I want my future career to be, it was something everyone always expected me to do but just took me a while to realise it myself.

The reason I am writing about this is because I want people to know, especially teenagers, that it is okay not knowing what you want to do, take your time and really think and experience different things and ALWAYS make sure whatever you end up choosing to do, it is for you and no one else.

I firstly left high school and went to sixth form not knowing what to do, I chose random subjects such as Psychology, Film Studies, English and Business. I only went cause my boyfriend at the time wanted me to. I left half way through because I absolutely hated it, it was not for me. I was stuck for another half year sitting at home, struggling for a job.

September came round again and I completed an NVQ2 in Front Office and Reception, I enjoyed this course so much but Hotel work gives you no social life, don't get me wrong I loved it but I couldn't do it for a living. However my teacher recommended I carry on to complete an NVQ3 in Business and Administration. During this course I broke up with my boyfriend at the time and basically....well...lets just say I went a bit off the rails and again dropped out, my stupid mistake.

Again I was sitting off doing nothing, struggling for work, the only job I have ever had is working for Argos as a Christmas Temp. Now a days it is just hard to get a job if you don't have experience.

Now I am going to reiterate again...never do anything if your heart is not in it, always make your choices based on what you want to do and no one else.

My parents always spoke about how they wanted either me or my brother to go to University, at least one of us, and it definitely wasn't going to be my brother, so I took up a course recently this pass September to gain equivalent to my A levels so I could go to University. A couple of months a go I realised it was not what I wanted to do, personally I didn't want to go another three years with no job and come out with still nothing and probably a worthless degree. Don't get me wrong university works for some people but I'm just not one of them. Well the funny thing was, turned out my parents actually didn't want me to go either in the end, they were on the same wave length as me. This was due to the fact when I spoke to them about it, feeding them information and they themselves asked friends with children in University it made them see and come to the same conclusion as me, its just not worth it unless you really know your going to come out with something at the end.

So here I am and I finally know what I want to do, I want to become an administrator/PA/Receptionist. I have interviews all this week for jobs and apprenticeships. I have always been an organised person, loved doing jobs for people, even typed up my brothers homework in school (obviously he had written it all down but needed it typed). I also taught myself to touch type since as far back as I can remember (Can type without looking at the keyboard) and can type on average eighty - ninety words per minute.

Well apparently everyone knew this type of career was right for me because of my personality and the way I act but never actually brought it up just suddenly when I decided they were like "Oh yeah, its perfect, we knew it would be something like that"

All I want to say is, take your time with your life decisions, it is okay if you change your mind along the way and make mistakes, at least you can look back and say "Hey at least I went and tried and knew it wasn't for me" and always make your choices on what you want to do.

I wouldn't have got were I am today without the support of my parents, family and my loving, amazing boyfriend. Thank you all.

I can now say, I know how to make lemonade :-)....hopefully.....as long as it don't get in my eyes :-P